Notice

Due to my change of email, and the hassle of signing in and out of accounts, I have relocated my blog toooooooooooooo:

http://ilfaitduventchezelle.blogspot.com/


Love always,

Janelle

iHate mp3 players.

Why?

They are like men. (The men I have come in contact with anyways). They are so wonderful when you first 'meet' them. Everything is going lovely and wonderful and you spend all your time together. Then something happens. The something varies, but it always destroys the relationship. You're not sure if it's you, because they won't tell you, and you can't think of anything you did out of the ordinary that might have caused the problem, so it must be them right? In my mp3 player's case, 'he' decided to start "refreshing database" every time I charged him. That was fine with me, until I realized that some of my mp3s became 'bad tracks'. There wasn't even a pattern of which ones were bad and which ones weren't. Old, new, downloaded, ripped etc. As if that weren't irritating enough, today when I pulled him off the charger, he went black. No the screen didn't turn off, it just turned black. and the blue light ring that's used to navigate through lists is still on too. I had to let the battery die and put it back on the charger when I got home. Well as soon as it had enough juice to turn itself on, it started the refreshing database process again, AND blacked out AGAIN! I will not last more than a month without and mp3 player...it sounds silly but I've become dependent on it, I used it for at last 5 hours a day..it's an extra limb. I don't know why these things won't stick around with me for longer than oh...8 months, but it really is an expensive problem.

Mp3 player #1-lasted 1 yr. Nothing wrong with it, just didn't hold enough and was outdated.

Mp3 player #2-lasted only 11 months. Was stolen from me. However it was rather small (in terms of memory).

Mp3 player #3-this one, lasted only 8 months! It was just fine! Until now. And I think it's dead forever.


I might look into apples. But they're so expensive.. and then I have to use iTunes. Eugh. Maybe I'll find something extremely durable....I don't think I have dropped this one since the sumer though....it has a scar, but I doubt the effects would take 5 months to present themselves.


Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Well at least I have my exam schedule and its pretty cramped but it will be over quickly.

Time foooo foooooood.

Love always,

Janelle

Poem Extended.

(A continuation found in the depths of a journal)

Barely morning,
Late October.
You wouldn't believe,
We were sober.
It's not a game,
but we broke the rules.
We're not the same,
but we're both fools.

It's not a contest,
but we're being judged.
So I'll get dressed,
but my silhouette's still smudged.

It's not a joke,
but you'll still laugh.
I wonder if anything broke,
because I feel cut in half.

There is no mystery
but I want a solution.
We have a history,
but there's no revolution.

Rules broken
in a game that doesn't exist
but the jury's spoken,
and the judge looks pissed.
He broke us in two
but we already were.
If only I knew,
but the line was a blur.
There's nothing to solve,
so we don't need to change.
I just wish this would evolve,
into something less strange.


Love always,

Janelle

When I read it in my head, I loved it. When I typed it here I saw a mess.

Today...

Today I woke up in a very unexplainably bad mood..

but, I had a good sanwhich for lunch and ate Almond M&Ms with Michele.....

and then

I went poster shopping.

I knew I didn't have much time

but

there was an autographed Beatles poster

and I had to get it..right then

what if it were gone tomorrow?

I would have cried.


End of story

I hope since there is a lot of snow/ice outside and freezing rain/10-15 cm of snow are imminent tonight, there will be a snow day tomorrow =)

Love always,

Janelle.

Balanced.

Janelle is currently pleased with:

--beef noodle soup!
--her American Eagle bra. It's probably the comfiest.. ever..who woulda thought?
--her weekend. Good times and got lots of work done too
--leaving work in the middle of a dinner rush :)

Janelle is currently displeased with:

--midterms!!
--the squeaky noise her work shoes are making because she broke the heel air bubble things...
--her lack of ability in French. Language is just not her thing.
--that song about lipgloss.. I might have liked it if I were 11 and lived in the ghetto.

Annnnd Tim Horton's story of the day:

As I was making my dinner before I left, some guy comes up to the side of the counter I was on and tells me "Uhh I orded a chicken club and you gave me a breakfast sandwich". I told him that was not possible since we stop serving breakfast at noon and it was after 6:30 pm. He looked pissed and said "well that's what you gave me" (rolling his eyes at me.. like I purposely gave him a fucked up sandwich). I took a look at it and guess what I found, a chicken club (Woowww big surprise). I told him that he got exactly what he ordered..and he asked "Well why is there egg and bacon on it?" (I assume he though the chicken looked like egg? It does look gross..but it doesn't smell like egg at all and if you've ever seen egg before, you'd probably know that chicken does not equal egg). I told him what he thought was the egg was in fact chicken and bacon came on the sandwich. I even showed him the picture with the fucking bacon sticking out of it on our menu. Well apparently he doesn't eat bacon, so he got a new bacon free sandwich. Friggen people.


Love always,


Janelle

What to do on a snow day?

Go bra shopping of course!

Bra shopping
=confusing
=time consuming
=hell.

I decided it would be a nice break from reading and since I'd finished more work than I had planned, I headed off to the mall.

I am glad its over.

I am glad it's pretty outside.

Love always,



Janelle

iJudge

I judge how fast my week is going by how soon it feels that I can check postsecret.

I judge when I need to do laundry by how many 'good' pairs of socks I have left.

I judge whether or not I should shower in the morning based on how frizzy my hair is. (On the days I sleep in too much..I really do shower most every morning).

I judge when I need to do dishes based on how many clean cups I have left.

I judge when I need to clean my room by how many tiles of the linoleum I can see.

Oh my god, it's February. Maybe one day I'll get used to feeling so behind all the time.


Love always,

Janelle

Please?

Could we please stop putting Atheists and Agnostics in the same group? There are definitely differences.

That's really all I had to say.

Love always,

Janelle

The man in the moon.

If the moon is made of cheese and it's a man's head...

Mild cheddar = your average nerd. He's a bit of a wimp, but when you get over that you can see, well an average, common guy. Still nothing special, but does the trick when you want some nachos.

Medium cheddar = average guy. He's not a nerd, but he's not too cool. He's your average run of the mill kinda guy and he's the safe bet when you're shoppin' for cheese. ;-)

Aged cheddar= the older man. He's always very tempting, he looks good and is very intriguing. However many people can't understand his mature taste, so he's not the most popular.

Swiss cheese= a rare find? This guy looks classier than your medium cheddar. He is very alluring because of this, but he has a more bitterness than the other cheeses. He's great until you find the holes inside. Keep the swiss cheese around for a one night stand (or two).

Feta cheese= the eccentric. He's a bit different and hard to get along with. You either love him or you hate him. You'll often find the feta guy is best served with others, (perhaps with some spinach.. or a greek salad) so mix him in with friends and you'll get a long with him best.

Parmesan cheese= this guy is tricky, he's either the rock (no, not the wrestler gone actor) or the flaky guy.In the rock-like state, this cheese is difficult to get at, but in the more common (to us North American's anyways) flaky state, he's hard to get along with too. He's the pushover (crumbles easily) and he's not likely to stick around for long, but when he does he gets stuck in the oddest, most annoying places --like sand. Really, he's the annoying guy.

Bleu cheese= watch out for this one, he's quite the bad-ass (rotten to the core and all). But don't worry, though bad-asses are hard to resist, but this is the true, hardcore bad-ass. This means he's so punk, he probably only showers when he wants to (when do guys REALLY want to shower?), so he has a distinct smell. You'll know him when you see, rather, smell him.

Mozzarella cheese= the wigger. No joke. This guy acts like, talks like and is ALMOST like a really cool med. cheddar, but he's obviously too white. If you're OK with that, then mozza is the man for you.

Marble cheese= the emo guy. He's all mixed up and so confused. No one knows who he is and no one understands him.

And there you have it. Some (clearly, not all) of the men we look up to in the sky at night and dream about; exposed for what they really are.

Love always,

Janelle

Shit.

We've all been through shit.
I've been through shit.
Sure, it's probably not the shittiest shit in the world.
However, it's my shit.
And this shit, happens to be my shittiest shit.
And you should probably be flattered if you don't know about my shittiest shit,
Because that probably means I simply don't want to drag you though the shittiest shit I have.

That was kind of shitty.

Love always,


Janelle

Ooops.

I'll give you this one, Timmy's customer, just because I was rude.

First, this guy comes up and asks for 20 assorted timbits, but only honey cruller if he could have that. Nothing was really funny about that, but the girl who grabbed the timbits started giggling, which made me smile.

Then he proceeded to him and haw (is that right? I've never used that expression except for in speech..well anyways) and he couldn't decide what else he wanted. Then he blurts out that he wanted "two sesame seagulls". I looked down at where the sesame bagels would be to collect myself, burt had to look away quickly because the girl who was fetching the timbits was nearly peeing herself laughing down there. I looked up and asked him if that was all with a goofy grin, but I couldn't help it, I burst out laughing.

How rude.

Timmy Hoe's: 125,645,002
Customers: 2

Love always,

Janelle.

Listing Again

Need for the kitchen:

--Frying pan
--Flipper thing "spatula"
--Cheese grater
--Sharp knife
--More butter knives? (I had 4 new ones and two old ones donated to me and no I only have two.. and it turns out, I use these knives a lot...)
--More dishes. One of each doesn't quite do it


Need for my room:(next year)

--New bedding in a bigger size!
--Full length mirror
--More hangers
--Some kind of footwear holding device.

Need to do:

--CS Lab (mon @ noon)
--Online assignment (Tues @ noon)
--Study for French (Wed!)
--Buy Across the Universe (Feb 5)
--Go to the gym!!
--figure out where it is first
--Buy beverages

Need to read:

--AFM =(
--JPOD
--The Other Boleyn Girl

Need to hear:

--Soho Dolls
--The Peirces

Other stuff I need to do:

--Buy another nose ring.. just in case...
--Get pants that are NOT jeans and that I can wear without freezing my ass off.( I just walked to the post office and to Farah's to get some milk...I had a runny nose and it actually froze.)

Love always,

Janelle

Srsly.

Why do I only have friends that are 19+?
I have decided:
18 is the most awkward age.
Fuck puberty.
You'll get over it.
In like a month.
18 lasts a whole year.

Grrrr.

Love always,

Janelle (is much happier now)

Drank

I know you read my blog.





















Love always,

Janelle <3

P.S.

I was blow drying my hair and I thought of this. Maybe we should try embracing what we would fight against. How many people agree that violence is not the answer?

Janelle's stream of consciousness (summarized...in Molly Bloom style...) "Uhgg stupid crazy hair, what are you doing?! I wish my hair was a littl eless curly, like wavy I remember someone telling me I needed to embrace my curls because they are always beautiful who the fuck was that? the last time I heard the word embrace was yesterday I overheard a conversation between two people about a women's studies class and someone said that women should embrace the femininity that society supposedly imposed on them but is giving in a sign of weakness maybe not succumbing to something you are not particularly fond of it tough to do wouldn't the world be more peaceful if we all embraced differnces I'm sure I'm not the first to think of this but then if other people have and if this seems as obvious a solution as it does to me why do people wage war probably because we are too lazy and arrogant.....I am fond of the idea though embracing what we once fought against fuck that means I'm gonna have to suck it up with AFM and CS........

Love always,

Janelle

Why am I in Business?

What the hell was I thinking, taking an Honors business program? Really, when am I going to need accounting/business skills? I know not. The further I get through this year, the more I want to kick accountants in the face. Is this all really necessary? Honestly, even if I ever was a manager of some company, I would hire accountants and bookkeepers. Fuck doing it myself. (Yea thats right accountants, even though I'm in arts, you'll still be working for me).

I must appologize, if there are three things that make me grumpy, they are:

1. Morning CS labs
2. Accounting classes
3. French conversation classes with snobby kids and a TA that slurs every 'mot' into one big mosh of french accented consonants. (Eg. "Jnsuispastom" = "Je ne suis pas ton nom" I understand you, but your over-exaggerated French accent pisses me off. Maybe thats how French people are supposed to sound. Maybe they are too dumb to separate sentances into words. Maybe, fuck French!)

Well anyways, I am off to get ready to what could be the tackiest event I will ever attend (or maybe not, who knows). It involves a lot of white clothing and a complimentary peep show fashion show, hosted courtesy of the local stag shop. I'm not sure how people talk me into this shit, but I talked myself into taking a computer science class so who knows.


RANT RANT RANT!!!!


Love always,

Janelle

Instead of getting ahead in my work....

...I am worrying about the next 3 years of school. I really don't know what to do because I want to do too much. I want to

a) keep my Honors Arts & Business program
b) possibly major in economics
c) possibly major in sociology
and d) take the Environmental Economics option


I've looked up possible courses out of curiosity and found a bunch that I think I'd really like in Econ (Including: Macro Theory I, Principles of Entrepreneurship, Intro to International Econ., Economy 2 : Macroecon., Macro Thoery II, Environmental Econ., Macro Theory III, Health Economics...) and even more in Soc. (Including: Gender Relations, Deviance, Criminology, Religion in Sociological Perspective, Group Dynamics, Independent Study--my own Soc research!, Soc. of Knowledge, Environmental Soc. ...).

The thing I thought would tie my interests together nicely was the Envs. Econ. option, because it brought in some Econ stuff, however it focuses more on microeconomics as opposed to macroeconomics and I'd much prefer studying macroeconomics. And then there's sociology on top of it all. If I major in econ and take the Envs. Econ. option...that's so much econ and so little Soc. If I major in Soc. that's so much Soc. and not so much of the Econ I want (assuming I take the Envs. option...) I have to get rid of one thing but I can't decide which one =(

I wish I had a career in mind. Perhaps that would make it easier......uuuuughhhhhhgghhghg.

Oh and I've already decided to cut out French. It was another thing I wanted to include but realized I didn't have space for...I know enough of it to get by, whatevs.

Pretty much, 10 classes per year for 4 years isn't enough =( grr grr grr. I don't know what I'm going to do. I guess I'll wait and see if I can make it through AFM 123 and CS 100 first....

Love always,

Janelle

Lyrics: May 27th to January 13th

Since May 27th, the day I started writing in my most recent journals, I have been writing down lyrics as I went. These were favorite lyrics from my favorite songs, at whatever time I wrote them down. These are the words I connected with, if you put them together, you'll probably find a story. (I realize it's cheesy, but I am a huge cheesy cliché of a person).

"You're the closest to heaven
That I've ever been
and I don't want to miss you right now"

"I'll always live for tomorrow
I'll look back on myself and say
I did it for love"

"I tired hard
but I guess I gotta try harder"

"I've always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry"

"Now waking up is hard to do
and sleeping is impossible too"

"So far from where we started
so far from what we wanted"

"and I do want to love you"

"Love has a reason
there's a meaning to the world"

Love always,

Janelle

I'm not sure if I've shared these yet...

...but I forgot about them...and found them.



Personally, I like the second better.

I mostly posted because I just wanted to say how much I feel like vomiting.

Breaaacchhhhee


Love always,

Janelle

Warning

Beware of any class that's title contains the words "Accounting", "Financial" and/or "Management", especially if they are all together. Especially if your professor is oversized and wears matching tie and suspenders that remind you of Christmas. Especially if you notice that only one person is taking notes while the other 49% are boredly staring at no particular point on the cement walls, while the last 50% is actually sleeping.

Yes, half my class today was actually asleep. Even my friend beside me who had his computer in front of him was bored. The prof let us out 20 minutes early because "we'd had enough accounting for one day". I'm pretty sure I've had enough accounting for my life, thanks.

Love always,


Janelle

Tragedy

Reasons my life is tragic right now:
.

--I was supposed to land in Kitchener at about 6pm yesterday and I didn't get home until about 11pm because of delays and an alternate landing..due to fog of all things.

--I waited for 45 minutes for a bus and it never came.

--I am considering using Christmas lights to brighten the other half of my room. They way the room is structured and the positon of the only light in my room leave the half where my dresser is so dark.

--Textbooks. Textbooks being in my life make me unhappy, especially my accounting one. It is the size of a Chemistry textbook.

--The only text book I need, I can't get.. maybe I will be able to tomorrow...however that's what they said about my French textbook for 2 weeks

--My Econ prof reminds me of Ms. Smith. She has the same hair, but with bangs and so many of the same mannerisms.


It's not all bad though, we didn't have to land in Montreal (which would have been the next option if there were no free runways in Toronto), a cab from grocery store to home is $10 with a good tip and I can use my student card, Christmas lights are cheery, I'll probably get my CS text at a discounted price because it's not it and Ms. "Smith" Vaughan seems to be alright, and she said Macroeconomics is much easier than Microeconomics. I can't think of an upside to accounting. There is nothing good about accounting. That is the opposite of what is good.

In other news, this is something I was thinking about a couple of nights ago. The term "strap-on lasagna". You probably haven't heard it before unless you are Cassie or Alex...for good reason. Who the hell uses a term such as that?! I don't really. It came from my bright idea that tofu lasagna was the strap-on of all lasagnas. The meat is fake, but it still does the trick. ;) Perhaps "dildo lasagna" would be a better term.

I sincerely hope I am not corrupting young minds, or withering older ones....

Love always,

Janelle

Can't.....resist....

In 2007...
Did you do something you thought you would never do?: Yes, actually and I don't feel like telling you what that is...if you don't already know.
Did you keep any New Year's Resolutions?: I didn't make any.
Did anyone close to you give birth?: Nope.
Did anyone close to you die?: Nope.
Did you visit any countries?: I went to the States...that's all.
What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?: Direction.
Will any date from 2007 stay etched in your memory forever?: I can't think of one...well I can, but it's lame and I'm not telling.
What was your biggest achievement of 2007?: I graduated. With scholarships at that. And I was on the honor roll.
What was your biggest failure?: Letting my license expire?
Did you suffer illness or injury?: Nothing major.
What was the best thing you bought in '07?: Hadn't bought anything that worthy of being mentioned....well come to think of it, a plane ticket to Waterloo...but I didn't really buy it.
Did your behavior change over the year?: Yes, toward the end.
Where did you spend most of your money?: Food, school and booze.
Are you happier than this time last year?: A lot. It's pretty drastic actually.
What song will remind you of 2007?: Not a song, just the line "SUPERMAN THAT HOE!"
What do you wish you would have done more of?: Smiling.
What do you wish you would have done less of?: Crying.
What did/will you do for Christmas '07?: Fam jammed it up!
Did you fall in love in 2007?:Yes.
Did you get your heart broken in 2007?: Yup.
Favorite TV program of '07?: Normally, I'd say House.. but since that's been around for a while, I'll have to go with Gossip Girl.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?: I don't hate anyone...jsut strongly dislike, but you probably wouldn't know.
What was the best book you read and/or movie you saw?: Across the Universe <3 !!!
What was your greatest discovery?: ...
What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?: Had a shitty day and turned 18. (I'm bitter, if you didn't know).
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?: Contentment.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2007?: I have no idea, I don't think I have a concept..I just roll with it.

Friends
Who was the best new person you met?: Too many awesome new people!
Who did you wish you did not meet?: My AFM prof?
Who was your best friend?: Cassie--for always.
Who was your enemy?: I have none.
Who do you miss?: My bed at Waterloo.
Who will you never forget?: Mes amis!
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007: Don't take anything more seriously than necessary.
What will you always remember about 2007?: My fondest memories will be of U Dubs...

Aspirations for 2008...
What do you want to do in '08 that you couldn't in '07?: Buy booze for myself!
Any resolutions?: See earlier blog entry.
What different about 2008 than 2007?: I am singler.
Anything you want to change about yourself for 2008?: I want to know what I want.
Do you want to make more friends in 2008?: Sure.

Firsts of 2008....
First email?: I think it was from American Eagle.
First phone call?: Dunno.
First text message?: I delete them..so dunno.
First visitor?: No one visits meeeee :'(.
First trip?: Will be back to UW.

RoooaaaAAArrrRRRR!

Noteasaurus has tagged you in their note You Dumb Motherfucker, read more...

"I would just like to say, without actually saying anyones name that it really pisses me off when someone does this. (This usually being some event that occurred within the previous 24 hours and pertains to probably one or two specific individuals involved ). Rawr, rawr, rawr. I am angry and you should all empathize. Rawr, rawr, rawr, I'd rather confront people over the Internet and I don't feel bad about it. "

This is hypocritical, I know. It is inescapable for everyone at some point or another.

Love always,

Janelle

P.S.- In other news, I have gathered enough evidence to prove that men are wonderful, but I have equal amount of evidence that they are huge bags of feces. I could easily write a book about how men are the complicated sex.

A to do list:

--Get my L, like tomorrow.
--Get a savings account that won't cost me a dollar for every transaction, like tomorrow.
--Buy the other pieces to Cassie's birthday present, like tomorrow.
--Clean my room.
--Find motivation to clean my room...it's difficult when I'm not going to be living in it for another 4 months.
--Pack my bags, there's a lot.
--Get out of the house this evening. I am due for fresh air soon.
--Blog about more interesting things.

Love always,

Janelle